the.

i'm being told to drop AEP.

what sick logic is this?!

just because my cursed gpa doesn't meet the 8-subject criteria.

whatever.

i shall stay calm.

or else the juniors that i have who read this blog will get freaked out by how i say things when i'm angry.

alright, one.

smile first.

two.

smile until i grin.

three.

look at the mirror and see a retarded image.

alright, that's settled. for now at least.

i guess it's okay. getting kicked out of AEP like that. shows me another side of life.

reality.

meh, whatever. this is just how life goes. i'll just learn to accept it. and change it when i grow up.

but NOT as a Singaporean when i grow up. but as a totally different being. namely idealists. lol, i must sound kinda serious. actually, if you imagine me acting dramatically when saying these few lines, obviously, i'm just joking =D

i'm not that dumb as to challenge the government when i'm just about to get my IC this year. that would be ironic xD i am a lawful singaporean since primary 3. there would be political conflict if i were to go all out to challenge the government. xD

anyway, i had ACE today. yet another lesson on active citizenry... kinda hard for me to relate to when i'm not even a true blue singaporean. being ostracized in society because of nationality is just really, really bad. 

actually, you still see it now. oops, blogger might just ban me again for typing racial comments here. whatever, it's not my first time being banned anyway.

i arrived at school pretty early today. 7.10am

not exceptionally early compared to the torture i had during orientation. was pretty lethargic early in the morning too. played jia ying's wii too vigorously... having some muscle aches around my arms. oh well, hopefully it gets better so that i can train up my chin-ups again. i only managed to do 2 at the fitness corner near my house today with these stupid muscle aches. must make sure i can do my required 7 for A no matter what condition i am in!

(so that i can beat lai yiren in arm wrestling too)

bwahaha, forget that stupid reason in brackets. i just need to be strong enough to protect the people i care for most. haha, sounds corny.

haha, those who read my previous post in which my fear is written in my post. well, they are related. doesn't matter. on with the post.

got scolded during chemistry lesson. we were 15min late. we didn't stop our bio teacher from dragging on. anyway, we F.O.C.kers probably learnt our lesson (poor jia-er, she got screamed at). read through the experiment instructions just before typing this post.

oh ya, speaking of bio, i actually left my homework at home right in front of my computer desk. how stupid. i was marvelling at it last night. so dumb of me.

watched a few episodes of code geass: lelouch of the rebellion R2. at episode 10 now. stupid utorrent keeps refusing to download the last 0.4% of the file as usual. what a pain. hopefully R3 comes out soon. code geass is practically my favourite anime at the moment, pushing death note to second in position.

i seem to have a fetish for storylines with strategic and intellectual placement of ideas and plots. call me a freak or whatever you want. it doesn't exactly matter.

addicted to the song COLORS too. it's the opening of code geass episode 1 to... i think 12? really nice beat.

i realise my posts are getting seriously random. oh well.

some people went to chen yin's house for more cookie making today. i wonder if they stare at the oven like a tv this time round. must be really interesting observing a cookie expanding.

and oh, they named the m&m cookies, mookies.

wow.

the honour.

great innovation =.= totally.

we earned $91 today. not bad, thinking back that we only have $40 for our budget. pretty pathetic. ooh, alliteration. zzz. pure randomness again.

hope i manage to join eds now that i am out of AEP, which means more time for practices if it ever occurs on tuesdays. or if i'm ever in EDS for that matter. i still owe jamie>mr ken, $20 for the new book which i had barely read. in fact, just the first 11 lines.

damn, my mind's in clusters. need to sort them out someday. saw oh hui xian at the bus stop when going home. she was with a friend.

and they skipped 2 buses.

what tolerance.

what patience.

for the sake of a non-crowded bus.

oh well, i missed one too cause there really wasn't any space left...

i've designed a seahorse (inspiration from egan!) using F-O-C-U-S. pretty cool i find. though i like the dolphin i designed out of H-E-L-E-A more.

alright, i don't think i have much left to say. except that i'm bored and that i should try sleeping like a normal human being at 10pm rather than a nocturnal insomia-bound freak who sleeps at 2-3am and wakes up at 5am on the same day. lol.

tata.           19-01-2009

the day a memory was re-attained. L